Below is the first poem that I ever wrote in 1984.  I woke up in the middle of the night needing to write and it came tumbling out of my mind into my fingers onto the paper.  The imagery reflected in the poem was clearly visible as if I was there experiencing the horrors of the enslavement of Afrikan people.

 

THE PROUD AFRIKAN

 

One day I looked within and saw

someone else

not myself as I was or used to be

but a new self

a self that travelled back in time

to a far off past in a distant lane

a land that I knew not

 

And there I saw in the distance

the agonised faces of my brothers and sisters

the chains had been loosened

but the scars remained

deep in the minds and hearts

of the proud Afrikan

my spirit sank

my mind recoiled

from the cruel reality of the enslavement of Afrikans

could this evil really have happened

I thought aloud

no one answered me

 

And so my mind as it raced through time

was filled with speculation

for the horror and anguish

there before me

daring me to open my mind to the truth

of what was done to the proud Afrikan

 

Our ancestor’s tried so hard to be brave and strong

and I can feel within me

the stirring of their spirit

as I behold the lash upon their backs

scarring them for life

could this be true, I asked myself

that human beings carried out this evil

this shameful cruel abuse and terror

and nearly destroyed

the proud Afrikan


Who did this evil to us Afrikans, I asked

from somewhere far off in the distance

came the reply

fellow human beings destroyed

used and abused the proud Afrikan

as I looked on my eyes enlarged

the horror came nearer and nearer

threatening to engulf me in a sea of unreality

I must get back I cried

back to my world of safety


Too late, too late

said the voice of the proud Afrikans

I didn’t blink as I recognised

the crease of pain upon their brow

and felt my heart break

that they should have suffered

such shame, torment and terror

for the Arab man and the white man’s greed


Time has move on

but still today they are here

still oppressing, the proud Afrikan

so , people

don’t expect  me to smile or laugh

at your crude jokes and insensitivity

for they touch the heart of me and mine

for we bear the scars of the proud Afrikan

 

This next poem is on a lighter note and is about an experience I had when I started my nurses training at Kingston Hospital in Surrey.  It is self-explanatory and some sections are written in the Jamaican language.

 

Tark Pash


Mi memba when

Mi start nurse training

Uppa Kingstan aspital

Wi hafe ina school

Fi six weeks

 

Well!

Having gained entry

Tu what ah cansida

Tu bi

De moss depressin werk ina de world

Which nobaddy

Shud du

Unless dem pay dem a whole heap ah moni

Ah wus canfrunted by de senior tuta

“lawd”

she tark pash


de oman ask mi politely

ina her well cultivated voice

if mi wus baan unda Bow Bells

“ah weh she ah tark bout”

mi she tu myself

is weh Bow Bells

hafe du wid me

 

soh mi tek mi courage

ina mi han

an ask her what she mean

she tell mi she

“ah ongle people

weh baan unda Bow Bells

is real cockney, soh

now dat mi going tu be nurse

mi fi cultivate new tarking”


“bway!”

she shud ah si

how mu insides ah laugh

mi she tu myself

mi cum ah Inglan

cum learn fi tark like white people

now de oman ah tell mi she

mi tarking like de wrong

white people

 

“Bway!”

yu can’t be yuself

ina dis yah world


The Question of Love heart


What is love

Many have asked the question

Well here I am with the answer


Love is that compelling feeling

That renders one weak

And incapable of resistance

To that loved ones request


Love I tell you

Is that emotion

That torments your every waking minute

Moving you one second to heaven

But reminding you

Again and again of the agony of hell

 

Love I say

Holds the world captive

It never dies

For it makes us all believe

Again and again

That this time

We have found our perfect love

That this time we have found our soul mate

That this time

We have truly, truly, found love


 

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